A new day and new hopes

Happy 2009 Bloggy friends!

Remember when it turned 2000 and that was such a HUGE deal. Here we are 9 years later and it just feels like another New Years!

Today I'm feeling a bit weary. Some part to staying up later than usual but mostly due to my body being tired and my mind still in 5th gear. I've laid there the past several nights just consumed with thoughts about my dad. Worries, what ifs and praying a lot. Today we are all getting together to spend some time w/ him. Then I will meet my siblings at the hospital friday morning. His surgery is at 11am.

I remember when my mom had cancer. She battled it off and on for 4 years. It seemed like we were asking for prayer over and over and over again. I remember feeling timid to stand up in our small wonderful church for the umpteenth time to ask my church family to pray God would heal her. So asking sweet people like you who I've never met IRL also makes me timid. I know...get over it! It boggles my mind that I would even hesitate to ask anyone to pray for me & my family! Pride no doubt has its ugly face in those thoughts I know. The body of Christ is WAAAAY bigger than my small little mind makes it out to be. And I know that praying for someone else is a gift in so many ways. So, humbly I ask you and thank you to pray for my family the next couple of days. I, for one can't describe the peace I feel knowing you sweet sisters are remembering me.

Here are the logistics again:

My dad has a cancerous tumor in his pancreas and it is located next to a very vital nerve that leads to his heart.

There are 3 ways this can go....

They will do a prob in his belly button and check things out. If there is concerns, they will not do the surgery.

They will open him up and find that the tumor is too risky to remove and conclude the surgery.

They can completely remove this nasty tumor who has caused a lot of heartache and worry.

Here are some ways I would appreciate your prayers:

Please pray for us, as the family dynamics are not all that smooth and I know my stepmom is very stressed out. And we are all invading her home today.

I know my dad is worried and upset about the whole ordeal. Please pray he has peace tomorrow. That everything goes smooth up to the surgery. And obviously during the surgery. Pray they can remove the tumor completely and this is all a success.

For my kids who are asking a lot of questions.

For my relationship with my dad. A lot of stuff goes thru a person's mind when things like this happen. There is way too much to go into and also not appropriate to post about, but I ache for my dad.

For his recovery which will be long. He is a man that does not sit still well. He's been a hard worker all his life and I know the time he needs to recover is a big concern of his.

For trust, peace, confidence and assurance in God whom I love with all my heart, soul & mind. As I watch Him work the next few days I am so blessed to have this in my heart. I can't imagine facing this w/o Him!

♥ you all,

Linda